"... he is just as selfish and soulless as ever.
Only a masochist could ever love such narcissist"
Blair Waldorf - Gossip Girl, her sad uttering of Chuck Bass.

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Guess i have always been a masochist my whole life.
I tend to hurt my self, or rather... i let myself being hurt by my those i love [or those who i think have loved me].

How? by acting wildly irrational when it comes to following my stubborn heart.

My belief in own so-called "feeling" has gone so deep it drowned me over and over and over again. Everyone i know has called me crazy and tried to pull me up to save me, i remain still. Swimming in the ocean of uncertainty, strongly believe that i am doing this for my own good, for the achievement that no other people may ever understand. Some loyal friends tho, participate to cheer me up along the way.

The fact is this: most of the times, I have my own original point of view in seeing and observing things. I tend to choose the hard way; i am more confident going down the rocky road; i feel warmed through cold words of others; i seek beauty in evil. I am undoubtedly afraid. Yet i am still willing to spend every dime, every sweat, every tear i possess to hold on to my dearly beloved. I am suffocated and damaged at best; I resist to surrender to reality.

My past experiences give me great lessons: that every turn one took [or did not take] will bear consequences. At times, the consequences may become the heavy burden or the uncured scar one will have to live with one whole life. I said, that's fair enough. At least, my dear, i can say "been there, done that" out loud.

That makes me a masochist.

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I am gluing my feet on to the pavement. I am a fool. And I am not going anywhere. God help me.

oh, this (s)crap means nothing.

Two words.

Chuck Bass.

Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *drooling* :p~~~
I have loved him from the very first episode of Gossip Girl [tv series].
He's pure evil. He's lust-driven. He's ever arrogant. He's ever self-content.
All in one - BAD BOY with style.

The character itself is played by Ed Westwick, 21 year old [born June 27, 1987 - cancer people rules!], a British guy. For the role of Chuck Bass, he has to convert his accent into American. Wonder how sexy he will be, speaking with British accent :p~

Pff... doesn't BAD BOY turn you ON?

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*update!
Just this from EOh boy oh boy.. how you make me drool!

Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaach to E!

XOXO Gossip Girl.

Yes, I watch the series too. Credits to Edison! You know i Love you!!
The storyline is not that bad, considering the unhealthy lifestyle of so called Manhattan's elite. Teenagers pretending to be adults before their time; parents accidentally unraveling their youth; friends who are friends and foes at the same time.

All of this little things adds up to a good drama.

And I LOOOOOOVE Chuck Bass, nevertheless.
He is troubled, sly, and a human being.

Looking forward to the newest episode!